here’s a thought

This is from something I wrote in my notebook a few months ago while sitting on the beach in Oregon.

What is it that people talk about? I mean, beyond the words, what are they saying?

The sky is blue, the waves are roaring, I am alive and I am writing of what I know. I am doing what I can at this moment to share my joy. I am making sense of this human experience. I am doing for the sake of doing. I am being for the sake of being.

All the moments melted into one, then set to harden, then dissolving like a sandcastle. Nothing ever stays the same.

Such is the nature of existing as a time-based formation. To grok the significance of my insignificance.

To see the simplistic essence structure underlying the complexity.

And then it dawned on me.

What have I even been rushing for?
What are these moments giving me if I never allow for peace in my mind?
How do I hit pause on existence itself?

I find it in breathing, in nature, in silence. I find it by digging into the present moment until I am grounded.

I find it in the rudiments.

I find it in you.